Of my job that is.
Don't get me wrong. I really enjoy what I do. When I'm editing video like the main aspect of my job description says. It's the drama of being a departmental manager that makes me want to leave the business altogether.
And this year, for some reason, has been worse then in the past. About every year in the fall I start debating what else I could do. I've looked into going back to school for teaching. But I really think that at my age, I'm a bit disadvantaged in this market.
Then I thought, I'll teach fitness classes. But really, how many turbo kicks can a person really teach in a day without crashing? So realistically, I don't think I can make a living off one class.
Unless that class is Pilates? I would love to be certified. I looked at the closest place. I looked at the price, the hours, and then remembered; I have a three year old, a husband, and a job. I can't be driving the 4 hours needed to get that training in.
And my dream felt crushed. Then out of the blue, my Pilates instructor tells me that they might be setting up a course here in town. They will have the certification people COME HERE!! The cost would be less, because of a buying equipment discount (something of that sort for the gym)
And my hopes jumped through the roof, and my brain already fast forwarded to me quitting my job in such a way that I no longer deal with the drama, but can work part time editing.
Of course, not sure my boss would ever go for that. But I can edit on my home computer now. Professionally, not the freebie stuff that comes on a windows.
So, I could still edit video to my hearts content (provided I can think of what I want to edit) and teach pilates, and quite likely make a living.
Then perhaps I could take up teaching PiYo, or hooping, or.....
See. That is my brain looking for a way out.
Since the possibility of the training won't even start until next year sometime. I have a few months to determine if I really want to do this, or if it's a flight of fancy.
But considering how many times I've circled around to the fitness business, I have a feeling I will go through the training.
Which is so confusing for me, considering that I left work today thinking "I love my job"
like I said, some aspects are wonderful and beautiful. And others I could do without.
And writing this down here, really hasn't helped me gain perspective of what I want. I really feel like I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.
